I yearn for a committed romantic relationship but I can not neither keep nor find a job and would be considered a bum who lives with his parents by most. I doubt any woman would look at me if they knew. My need for intimacy has been neglected for years to a point it affects my well being. I wish to be loved so I can live a good life once again, to better myself and my life, to love back. But I need to get through it alone as I doubt anyone would be this patient with me.
Honestly, I feel that me thinking all of that makes me both pathetic and selfish but the more I try to suppress these thoughts the louder they get.
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