>be me
>not ugly not awfully introverted
>can talk and get attention easily
>severe adhd so I talk a lot about really autistic shit (mainly Napoleon, European history. and 19th century French lit)
>dated one guy in hs that's it (he's the one that introduced me to that side btw never went back)
>ive been single for 6 years because he's my only reference of a bf and I havent found a single copy like him
>normie guy talks to me?
>disgusting. creep. probably only here for sex. probably braindead. probably dont know shit about History.
>half normie guy talks to me?
>weird. they think me being retarded is cute. I feel like an object or an anime girl. they will have sex, maybe date me, then leave.
>autistic guy talks to me?
>sure. I can get into it if he's not too retarded. but there's a high chance he will latch onto me like a leech and try to khs if something goes wrong
>guy who shares my interests talks to me?
>most of the time long distance. not into that shit.
>guy in my perimeter I actually like who might like me back talks to me?
>I get nervous, I say the most mentally ill shit and then he is stolen by another more stable foid and I get cucked.

my mom keeps asking me when's my next boyfriend. when I will have kids... I dont see when it will ever happen. dating pool is shit. people are boring. I just wanna coom on historically accurate napoleonic wars, built up historical AUs with every single details thought of in the uniform. and maybe write huge tons of text about the Holy Roman Empire and how autistic Louis xvi was.
>when will I get to date my historical husbando that will agree to have sex dressed up as a 19th century British dandy....