We've spoken before and there's a good chance you'll recognize who I am.
Either way, dunno if its funny or how to really call it but on my end I've really become jaded when it comes to any sort of relationship. Sometimes I really crave being in a friend group again but I already fucked up my chances. Deep down I know there's no reason to give a shit.
I think I am finally jaded to all this shit in general and now the feeling of not wanting to interact with anyone outweights my crave for being social.
I've deleted most of my social media and wiped out my Steam...
I spend most of my days playing 4 gachas and jerking off for 6 hours. At this point I may be living out of spite.
One last thing I'll do before I die is to piss on Anno's grave.
Regardless as fucked as it sounds setting up a suicide date is a good motivator. I've done it three times and somehow the pressure made me improve my situation so I hope you can be a repeat of me.
I hope we can still keep it going, I guess.
Maybe its masochism at this point but regardless of my schizo tangent. I still feel like occasionally trying everyonce again into being able to connect with people in general.
Dunno, I'm mentally ill and unstable being rational isn't part of my kit.