A couple pages of my insanity. I might have a legit medical issue because my ability to concentrate goes on and out.
Some of the heads on the bottom left are copied off a YouTube video. Just trying to copy the girl's drawing from (her) imagination actually helped me regain my ability and I was able to draw my wife fairly well (not pictured.) I feel better and I don't understand what's happening to me. After the first few bad doodles I was so exhausted I couldn't go on without a break, but later I could draw without getting tired (there's more pages but you don't need to see all that bullshit, a sample is enough to make my point.)
https://youtu.be/1K4K5_HGgUk?si=Mq7_aLCHs_rVWmA0
This was the video. If I could draw like that with a bush pen I'd be pretty happy. Most her catalog is watercolor it seems, so I'm disappointed.