It's all my fault, isn't it? Everything that ever went wrong in my life was caused by my own hands.
I'm lazy, ungrateful and a narcissist. I didn't have many friends growing up because I was too emotionally stunted to figure out how to be interested in other people. I'm behind in life because laziness has completely taken over my body and mind.
Imagining myself as a woman is merely an escapist fantasy where I don't need to deal with the problems I caused, and so I could start anew without consequence. I don't have a woman's mind/soul/whatever, and I'll never have. The differences between me and the average woman is extreme. We look different (duh), we act different, we ARE different. There is no sense of similarity between me and the natural feminine.
I hate myself.