QOTT: What's your cope of choice?
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I want a cute wholesome middle school lesbian romance with my best friend. I want to discover my sexuality and be supported by my parents and my friends. I want to sleep over at my girlfriends house and snuggle with her in her warm bed while there's a winter storm outside. I want her to cuddle me and rub my tummy when I get cramps. I want her to tell me I'm beautiful. I want us to plan our future together. I want to go to sleepovers and gossip about our crushes. I want to get into stupid fights over nothing and then cry and make up. I want to take care of my girlfriend when she has the flu. I want to spend my summer holidays at the beach with my girlfriend. I want her to rub aloe vera on my back when I get sunburnt, I want to sneak out of our beach house at night and lay on in the sand and look up at the stars all night. I want to try alcohol for the first time and get tipsy and fall asleep on my girlfriends shoulder.

>>40299961 (OP)
im sorry

>>40299961 (OP)
I cope by doing anything remotely positive for trans people and trans rights. If I’m gonna stay repping, I might as well do something useful in my life and advocate for stuff like accessible gender affirming care. It’s not a bad cope I find. It helps give my life a sense of purpose.

>>40299961 (OP)
Not having a vagina is so fucking depressing.

>>40299961 (OP)
My cope is consuming escapist content every waking hour of the day. Also anime girls. I was thinking the other day, what actually makes me happiest in life, and I came to the conclusion it was cute anime girls. It's the only thing that still puts a smile on my face no matter how shit I feel. If anime AI gfs ever become good enough I'm 100% done for I will quit my job and rot in bed spending time with her until I die.

>>40299961 (OP)
My cope is realizing I never had a chance to begin with. I never had any opportunity to troon out in my younger years (and even now).
It wasn't meant to be. By the time I'll be free enough to do anything it'll be too late (if it's not too late already).
I also tell myself I'll regret transitioning anyways. Every single time I imagine myself as a woman I feel nothing now. No joy, no sadness, nothing, and I take that as a sign of me just being a depressed loser instead of "dysphoric".

>>40301258

> My cope is realizing I never had a chance to begin with.

I hate to be brutally honest with you but unless trooning out would have made you homeless then you’re just lying to yourself.

> Every single time I imagine myself as a woman I feel nothing now. No joy, no sadness, nothing, and I take that as a sign of me just being a depressed loser instead of "dysphoric".

I just get horny, then get a boner, which then makes me feel even more dysphoric because my dick is sticking out.

>>40299932
does it look nice? or ugly?

>>40299961 (OP)
weed and comically large dildoes

>>40301483
It's not my type of outfit so I don't feel qualified to judge it desu.

i really burned my life down 5 years ago to be a neet repper
it's over hahahahahahaha

>>40301471
>but unless trooning out would have made you homeless then you’re just lying to yourself.
I already whined about this in the last thread, but I genuinely had no way of trooning, I:
>live in the middle of nowhere
>family is pretty controlling and not supportive at all
>broke as shit (can't get a job because family wants me to be studying full time)
>rarely left the house growing up, now if I do anything outside it would draw suspicion
The logistics to pull it off are honestly some mission impossible shit, dude. Not everyone can just order a vial to their home or go to planned parenthood.

>>40301593
Have you got a friend that could help you out with like hiding stuff.

decided to toss out my hrt after realizing im just an autistic twink gonna order steroids and become the manly man i was always meant to be

>>40301797
Testosterone is poison

>>40301727
Nope.

>>40301797
make sure to keep a log of your thoughts and feelings and check back after some
time on T this is good research anon

>>40301930
The point is though: you never tried.

>>40301879
should i just jump straight to tren?

>>40302085
You're right, I never did. Maybe that was my mistake, maybe things wouldn't be as bad as I thought.
It doesn't matter now. I've already been punished by nature for my indecision.

>>40302448
If it helps anon, I never tried to as well and I guess we are going to have to figure out a way to live with that fact. I gave up after seeing the waiting times on the NHS website.

>>40302392
>>40302392
This could be you. Why repress?

>>40302366
Idk what that is sorry.

>>40302643
My skull is the size of a watermelon

>>40302643
too old

>>40302621
Honestly, if all that's stopping you is the waiting time, just buy DIY and you might be happy someday, if you got fucked by your body too then I guess it's good to know I'm not alone.

>>40302643
pic rel is why im repressing (6'1 btw)

>>40302643
i'm taller than every man i've ever met

>>40302667
I don’t believe you post with watermelon for scale
>>40302704
How old?
>>40302723
>>40302728
Chasers were going crazy for a 6’4 tranny the other day anon. They may not be taller but they’ll be into you

>>40302643
im a disgusting balding ogre

>>40302723
> Honestly, if all that's stopping you is the waiting time, just buy DIY and you might be happy someday, if you got fucked by your body too then I guess it's good to know I'm not alone.

Yh, I’ll probably end up buying crypto tomorrow. Don’t know what I will end up doing though.

>>40302844
If you do end up transitioning, then I sincerely hope nothing but the best for you. Please don't end up like me.
Try to find happiness while you still have the time.

>>40302816
>How old?
27 in a couple months

>>40302913
It’s nice of you to say. But I won’t pass.

need this so bad

>>40299961 (OP)
take your HRT, retards

>>40302913
Also, I think I might need a break from this website to reflect whether this is something I really need or I’m just doing it out of jealously of those already on hrt.

>>40303426
Yeah, you probably should. /repgen/ in specific is really good when you're feeling down, but once you start prowling this place all day other's misery will probably start to get to you.
Take your time, but don't take too long. Even if you think you won't pass, the longer you wait the harder things become.
I'll probably follow my own advice and stop coming here as well, at least for a month or two.
I hope you find peace someday.

That's so cool how I can just wake up already feeling like shit because of this stuff
Sometimes it's like a random instant debuff from the moment I wake up
I don't smoke or drink or do any dumb shit but it doesn't matter because I get clubbed over the head with these thoughts and feelings for no reason and it brings my quality of life down to the same level as people who are retarded addicts

>>40303589
Thanks anon. Heavy emphasis on the don’t take too long part.

>>40302643
Chasers are fucking gross

>>40299961 (OP)
i started alt girl coping. enough makeup to not look like myself, cute feminine clothes and accessories to clearly differentiate me from normal men i aspire to be and i use IRL poons in my" friendgroups" and "communities" as a repfuel + a reminder how delusional it is to believe you can be a man while 5'1 and so obviously female. butchcoping didn't really work for me honestly, im not masculine enough body-wise to pull it off and i felt like dogshit; i was so close to lloking like a man but i still wasn't one. while fem/ traditionally girly im just dead inside and wishing for all of this to somehow end.
i also started using art to cope.

alcohol ain't working as a cope anymore
i'm actually feeling worse than i have ever lol

>>40302448
Me too noni. I don't even have any excuses, just my own mental hangups. Oh well.

i feel like i'm dying

Being in a place overwhelmingly full of cis guys can't be mentally healthy

>>40307683
*for years

>>40300261
erm well what are you gonna do now about it

>>40299968
I used to yearn for things like this, but even those dreams are dead by now. Now there's only darkness in front of me.

>>40305661
this is like the ftm version of becoming a gymbro.

>>40305661
i am going to tie you down and inject you with a heroic does of t

>>40307683
The average cis guy is highly venomous. You should stay away from them at all costs. Thank god the few male friends I have are nothing like the average cis guy, specially this autistic nerdy guy who's also disgusted by the average cis guy but mostly because of his autism and bullying.

For anyone that sees this. I made a post basically stating that I tried to use a woman to help suppress these feelings I have for transitioning by losing my virginity to her and hoping this was the answer to remove these thoughts and feelings for good. I was contemplating detransitioning 6-7 months prior to meeting her and so when we started talking.. I decided to take that leap and stop hormones and everything for good. 2 months in the relationship, I start getting these strong feelings from before I started HRT and it just disabled me and put me into autopilot. I’ve been on E for 3.6 years but I stopped for the 2-3 months we’ve been together and I decided to end once i started feeling this way again.

I’m now trying to understand if transitioning would make sense or if it would be smarter to try and find a different avenue in repressing these thoughts :/

I tried working out for a little bit, but it hurt me more to think about what I was losing so I had to stop that. I now just not on hormones and I just feel defeated and lost

>>40299961 (OP)
I'm crying whilst listening to Kate Bush. If I only could

if i try hrt and it doesn't make me into a girl am i allowed to kill myself

>>40307951
Why were you thinking of detransitioning before meeting her? Were you uncomfortable about how you were perceived? Failed transition? Reverse dysphoria?

>>40308136
My height and living situation is really what created these feelings.

Apparently my face is cute and my body is proportionate.. but it’s also not enough to be feminine so I told myself that it might be time to walk away and try living as a guy again.

>>40307922
To be honest though, I realize women aren't that much better. Vicious competition there too.

>>40308067
you have to try for at least 6 months.

Why not be a feminine gay man?

>>40308182
So you basically:
>detransed for reasons that are external and not truly your own regret
>tried to get over it and failed after a few months
>now feels the urge to start again
I think you already know the answer, anon. The only reason I can think for you to actually repress here is if you think you can actually get over it (not very likely considering the thoughts came back) or if you're afraid of becoming infertile.

>>40308338
I don't really feel that fruity really. I don't think I would act that way if I was openly trans. I feel like I'm just an average girl. I do gesticulate a lot though.

Honestly I just got a therapist to just practice opening up to people and trauma dump to someone that's forced to be there because I pay them. I'm not looking to the whole tranny discussion though. It feels very overwhelming and embarrassing admitting im a man that took estrogen for 2 years and occasionally has tranny feelings.

>>40308350
kinda crazy you won't let yourself act fruity unless you can see yourself as a woman

>>40308414
I don't want to act fruity at all. I'm just telling you that doing that won't help because I don't see that as my version of being a woman.

>>40308455
why not act how you imagine you would if you were a woman, but as a man?
I mean obviously acting that way would make you happier, right?
>others wouldn't approve
as if they do now

>>40308520
but I want to look like one and be treated as one. acting is not enough.

>>40307922
4chan has probably rotted my brain

>>40308579
>and be treated as one
found the sexist

>>40308589
what are you even talking about.

>>40299968
>i want to be a little anime loli girl from da yuri anime
LOL suck my brown cock

>>40308605
you believe there are specific, certain different ways in which men and women are treated - that's sexist

>>40308613
yeah, like being addressed as a woman. Are you high or something?

>>40308633
you believe there are ways to be "treated as a woman" other than just being called she - you realize people will hugbox any man in a dress these days right?
estrogen isn't gonna make you look or act like a woman dude

>>40308648
ok, you're just being rude now. are you a terf or a poltard?

>>40308658
you will never be a real woman

>>40308338
I kind of hate men. There's idealized men as a boyfriend, and then there's the actual typical man like you encounter here, and they're awful fucking creeps.

>>40308679
transgenderism is rooted in internalized misandry - you learned to hate yourself for being an autistic male from women

>>40308689
>misandry

Mostly what men do to each other.

>>40308679
men are seldom like the idealized boyfriend. They're crass, dense assholes who are allergic to express even an iota of emotion or vulnerability, mostly because their brains are infested with toxic masculinity. If you find a guy that's not like that befriend them immediately.

>>40308697
misandry is women trying to drive men to madness - clearly it is working
imagine if any of you could actually accept being gay and not hate your fellow males

>some fucking poltard talking shit
It gets so tiresome.

>>40308704
I think it's hilarious to see how men on /tv/ react to someone like Pedro Pascal. "Ooooh he doesn't hate trans people, he must be a gay pedophile!!"

>>40308338
because I'm not and don't particularly want to be "feminine", I just want to be a woman
also not gay

Weird looking back and knowing that if I had been a girl I'd have been a fucking horse girl. My dad tried get me into horses along with my younger sister, but since I was the 'boy' he was a fucking asshole who didn't tolerate any hesitation, lack of knowledge, and definitely no mistakes. So that combined with natural timidity and the base repper fear that working with horses would be perceived as 'girly' kept me right out of it. Maybe dodged a bullet with that one? Horse girls are fucking weird.

Reminder it is all Fahd and you can just stop wanting things

everyone here under the age of 21 would be happier if they trooned out
except for me I should rep

>>40309435
everyone here would be happier if they trooned out
except for me I etc

argghhhhhhhh ahoy mateys I love repping! Sex changes are for landlubbers, it be just a sailor's life for me!

>QOTT: What's your cope of choice?
Making bingos

I tried to make it interesting. PLAY!

>>40309751
Talk like a pirate day is in september, baka

>>40309790
lol

>>40309790
What do I win for failing repper bingo?

>>40309996
Congrats, you are not nearly as fucked as everyone else here. Go on an rep no more. (and by that I dont mean transition)

>>40310008
To be fair the only reason I don't smoke weed is because it gives me sinus headaches, and lack of an Amazon basics wardrobe is because I only wear clothing I get as a gift and for up to 10 years that I'm pretty sure are from Walmart instead (I still have shirts from when I was a teenager over 10 years ago.)

hello fellows i am a tourist
i have question: why?

i wish there was a more humane way to ask

>>40310026
Be glad. Weed just drags down your productivity and makes you wanna chill all day. Especially bad if you're a shut in with no friends.

In hindsight, I shouldve put "Has smoked weed" to cover people like you too, lol

>>40310094
>why?
The most common theory is a hormone imbalance in the womb that causes one's brain to masculinize (or feminize for ftm reppers) poorly during development.

>>40309996
>>40309952
I don't have opposite sex digit ratio

It was over before it began

>>40310101
you know there's daytime weed and nighttime weed, right?
I take weed and then go hike for a few hours. Like, even if it couch-locks u, as long as you don't take TOO big a dose, and you force yourself to move, it can be fun.

all of my "dysphoria" is just me trying to rationalize and make more normal my desire to have a flat crotch

Today I randomly remembered when I was 16 and I went into Kmart and bought like 10 pairs of girls underwear and took it up to the cashier and bought it without flinching. I can't fucking believe I had the balls to do that, I would die of shame attempting anything like that now. This was back before self service checkouts were really a thing and I didn't want to order online in case my parents got nosy.

>>40309790

Gainax / Trigger are kino but not my favourite.

repping ruined my life

>>40310961
I gave in last year after repping for 17 years. It's better on the other side.

being born wrong ruined my life and there's no way to fix it

How much else do you guys repress? For me it's basically everything. Sometimes I fantasize about talking to my parents about my interests but when I see them I never actually do it because it was drilled into my head early on that anime and video games are cringe and I'm not allowed to talk about them. Okay my parents aren't interested in anime obviously but like I have no interest in theatre and my mum talks about it every time she sees me. I have no interest in football but my dad talks about it every time he sees me. I've convinced myself not to ever talk about my cringe interests when really I just want to gush to someone about something I really love, because there's not much of that left in the world for me.

>>40310961
Nah your life was probably ruined before that, people only rep if they have trauma.

>>40309790
I no longer smoke weed and I played a total of like 2 hours of tf2

>>40309790

>>40311199
My parents never had any interest in my interests, they instead wanted to force me into theirs. Didn't work but I did discover the internet so talking about my interests was easy to do online.

>>40309790
I got bingo 4 times!!! Wtf

>>40307735
Complain and bitch all day while occasionally jerking off to sissy porn.

why do you ask

>>40312297
*5 times...

dodged too many appointments because of being a nervous repper freak so the national gender identity clinic threw me out and stopped giving them to me without telling me after ive been waiting for months for a new one (and the last rebook was actually out of my control) after i had started to accept it was what i had to do too
guess ill kill myself

>>40312938
legal disclaimer: i am not actually going to kill myself

i ordered hrt

>>40313116
Congrats on graduating.
>>40312938
DIY is your only option I guess.

>>40309790
>no bingo
does this mean I should leave while I still can?

I don't know why I want to troon out.
It's not AGP and it's not wanting something I can't get as a man or any other common reason. It doesn't make sense either logically or emotionally.
The best way I can explain it is like being non-physically pulled to the idea, like the physical sensation of falling but spiritually instead.
The idea of being a woman is somewhat appealing, but nowhere near as appealing to get me to troon out and possibly being deformed forever.
It feels almost paranormal. Like my soul instinctually wants something my conscious mind cannot comprehend.
Am I going crazy? Does Inanna want a new prophet?

>>40313730
cause you have heckin dysphoria! take the titty skittles!

>>40309790

I WISH I WAS A WOMAN

>>40299961 (OP)
>What's your cope of choice?
avoidance and withdrawal, which are pretty maladaptive copes overall. would not recommend

>>40309790
i do relate to ted wanting to live alone in a cabin i suppose

To be honest if you gave me the choice between fixing my GD or my executive dysfunction I would choose the EFD every time.

everything i do is just meant to delay my suicide, laser? +few months, hrt? +2 years
im just destined for suicide trutrans people pass and im not

>>40312938
i'm faketrans because i could transition yet i don't
>national gender identity clinic
uk?

Yes im not trans! Later losers

Take your meds, anons

has anyone here also decided to stop looking in the mirror, even at their own reflection?? The last time I looked at myself in the mirror directly was three weeks ago

I try my best not to look at my own shadow too, I even started to use the bathroom and shower in the dark

>>40317218
I did that for about 8 years in a row.

sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry

>>40317441
anon are you okay

>>40317475
yeah
no
yeah

>>40317482
what happened?

>>40317721
repping

>>40317725
>>40317721
>>40317218
>>40317475
kats shitfilled "pussy" (asshole) is "squirting" (shitting) all over monos BBC

>Monos dick swirling in kats moist shithole
>Mono won
>Navy lost
worried about kats poop swirling on monos cock???
help please???

Thoughts on kats moist shithole getting fucked by transbian dick

BRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAP

Mono pulls her throbbing troon cock out of Kat's stinking male anus.

A moist sound. The poop particles fly out of Kat's "pussy" into the room. Mono cums.

Think I somehow cured my dysphoria accidentally?

Think I finally can feel happy with being male and enjoy aspects like being able to feel more powerful and energetic like the world is right in front of me and I just have to reach out and grab it.

>>40299961 (OP)
every time I open this gen you all seem miserable specifically because of not transitioning, have none of you thought for a second "hey maybe I should stop doing that thing making me miserable"

kinda a miracle I'm not an alcoholic given how much better I feel drunk
>>40319345
oh fuck you're right, mb

>>40319345
The fear is that they won't pass, and the social and mental backlash from being a hon will be worse than just sliding through life as a sad guy.

>>40299961 (OP)
should I cut myself?

>>40319487
no

>>40319487
nah, not really worth and people get weird about it

>>40319481
being a hon low key so fun when you don't got a bitch in yo ear saying it's not. i love hanging out with other trannies and kissin em, we honned up and idec

>>40319627
i don't want to be a hon i want to be a girl girl type girl

>>40319662
yeah but sometimes you just gotta make the best of what you got you know

>>40319627
do you live in a big city in a blue state in the us?

>>40309790
*I don't count butt sex as losing your virginity because having sex with men isn't a challenge

*Nowadays I don't have meta-attraction anymore

>>40309790

>>40309317
tfw you'll never be a horsegirl

>>40321914
The Overlord is best horse girl

>>40321038
now yeah. I was a NEET until I trooned out at 27 in a red state and then I got a shitty fast food job while manmoding saved up 10K and moved.

>>40317218
i avoid mirrors for 35 years

>>40319345
there's the misery of being a repper and also the misery of being a hon
either way is miserable

>>40319345
transitioning doesn't work

>>40322371
>>40322402
im a hon and it's fun

>>40322232
I saw it everywhere and I started playing the other day. Now I'm completely addicted. Game is 100% kino. I like Bakushin and Golshi

>>40322232
I saw it everywhere and I started playing the other day. Now I'm completely addicted. Game is 100% kino. I like Bakushin and Golshi

>>40299961 (OP)
I’m faketrans hrt repper tocd rogd agp agamp and I hate myself for being day ugly and worthless

Transition has no long-term proven benefits.

STOP FAPPING, START LIVING!

Seriously, don't trap yourself.

Transition doesn't work.

>>40322548
The king returns

>>40322548
No way you are her

>>40322402
>>40322371
well youve only tried one and you know you hate it so why not just take the gamble and hope it gets better?

>>40322593
>>40322580
I'm trolling she already transitioned loool

I'm going to transition into a horsegirl

>>40322596
The same king does not always wear the crown.
There must always be a cure anon.

>>40322619
imagine if you were AFAB and could just be given estrogen and T blockers and your dysphoria would go away, T doesn't do the same to AMABs

>>40322619
take your pills sweetie

>>40322640
I gooned so much to pics like this

should i move out? i'm scared of flying

I used to drink but I can't do that now.

>hate mtfs for bravely going through with transition while I languish in inaction and keep getting older
>hate ftms for having what I want yet choosing to throw it away to look like me i.e. just another balding manlet
who else /fullofjealousrage/?

There's no where to go on the internet if you're a loser with no hope. The internet is 100% normified.

>>40322442
do people not look at you weird on the street?

don't think i can post here anymore without making myself sad

>>40324370
Only people I really envy and hate are normal people without mental illness (gender dysphoria)

even the best troon is just a loony troon.

Really not a fan of my horrible inverted triangle body

>>40326333
And I'm not a fan of my giant head.

We're boned.

i hate being an agp man

>>40327082
> me when someone on 4chan says they want agp

On another note, I sympathise with you a lot. I experience dysphoria like any other trans person, yet when I try and do something gender affirming, I feel more horny than euphoric. While others get to experience the euphoria as it is with no boner.

god i hate repping so much. what a waste of a life

>>40327395
me...

>>40309790
with added context

>>40310961
same

>>40307786
I feel like that's started happening to me recently. My escapist fantasies have been harder to immerse myself in and my desire to be my female self has faded a bit. It's just being replaced with a strong desire to not exist at all.

the repper urge to apathetically do nothing until you die

I wonder if it would be a good idea to have repper friends

I'm crying thinking about all those transpeople who felt there was no option to deal with their dysphoria besides transitioning. None of them will know about repressing and it breaks me.

>>40327793
How do you find a repper in the wild?

>>40327817
I've never been found so idk

something in my brain broke and i can't not feel actively sad anymore

my head hurts all the time

>>40327837
Well, I’m not sure either but here are some signs I know for sure I give off:

> supports trans rights without meaning or purpose to do so (may conflict with their political alignment)

> may seem very educated when the topic of trans people is being discussed or may abstain entirely from the conversation

> hair. Sometimes be long, no motivation for a haircut.

> shaves everyday

> underweight with no motivation to gain weight

> boring wardrobe

> no motivation to work out and gain muscles

> no girlfriend

> quiet and shy

> sits crossed legs all the time (but also common among cis men)

> neurodivergent

> screen time > 10 hours a day

> top 3 social media is discord, 4chan, and reddit

>>40327954
Reppers feel free to add

>>40327954
>>40327969
Laughs nervously when a family member or female friend jokes about painting their nails or doing their makeup.

>>40328027
Omg yessssss

I remember when I was out with my friends (male friend group) I was probably about 15 at the time and one of my friends made a joke about me going under surgery to create a vagina and then him testing it out with his penis. We all laughed knowing deep down that is one of my greatest desires. (Probably not the being fucked by my friend part though)

>>40327954
Has ever asked their parents what they were planning to name them if they had been a girl, "just out of curiosity."
>>40328132
Closest I've ever had happen to this is joking with male friends (who have no idea about the repping) that we'd be ugly girls.

>>40328209
I was told what my name would've been as a kid, though I've since forgotten, so now it's essentially lost forever as there's no way I'm asking again

>>40328209
> Has ever asked their parents what they were planning to name them if they had been a girl, "just out of curiosity."

I asked my mum once whether she was hoping for a girl or a boy. She said she was hoping for a girl. Except out came one in a male body :(

>>40328300
do you think it’s worse it they wanted a boy? i feel like ill betray them all if i troon out

>>40327954
Won't go shirtless to the pool/beach, even if they don't have tits or moobs.
>>40328286
>>40328300
My parents claimed to have not even thought of names before the determining ultrasound. I didn't believe them but they gave me a weird look so I dropped it.

>tfw flushed my pills, tossed my clothes, ghosted the trannies i knew and left the discords i was in and moved across the country to try and escape the tranny thoughts
>6 months later, they're back again
FUCK
DOES IT EVER GET ANY BETTER

>>40328350
For sure. But then on the other hand, for me I am my parent’s only son and I know my dad would be pretty upset deep down.

Also if one of my cousins (male) who is about 2/3 hadn’t of been born and I trooned out, my grandma (my dad’s mum) would have 3 grandchildren who are girls and both grandchildren born male would be trans girls, so therefore no sons. (My cousin is trans)

>>40328404
No, it only gets more and more miserable. If you chose this for some retarded reason then you deserve it.
>t. trverepper (never took hrt, haven't crossdressed since like 7yo, never had tranny friends, no discord account)

i wish i had tranny friends

posting here seems like a bad move for repping. you need to spend more time away from screens, bond with other men. get some outdoor hobbies.

>>40328632
same desu

>>40328679
I want to go camping some this summer but it just feels like I have zero energy to do anything anymore. Nowadays I can only spend the night if it's warm out and my campsite is near clean water so that I can still wash off the nasty man oil that cakes my body every time I sleep. If I pluck the morning before I can have one day without needing to shave growth off of my face, but after that I need to use a razor and doing that with just water sucks.

>>40328679
i mean, this place is for the reppers who can't live the illusion of actual repping anymore and understand their only choice is death or HRT. thankfully I truly think most people here will follow the latter path, simply because they can't stop themselves from going on an LGBT board and mingling with trannies. that will wear them down eventually.
I honestly feel way less hopeful for the ones going outside and trying to be normal, starting a family etc. that's nightmarish

I'm not actually trans, I just hate myself.
Because of that I dissolved my own self-identity as a defense mechanism. Due to this fluid sense of identity, I started copying people I admired, which tended to be women because I'm probably a little autistic and don't relate to the average male. I simply lack male figures to look up to and aspire to be like.
checkmate, pinkpillers.

>>40328627
i never should have moved because there was only one troon doc in town and would have refused to prescribe after i publically detransed
it would have forced me to stay repping
but i can already tell the thoughts are chipping away at me now that im somewhere i could troon out again
IWNBAW IWNBAW IWNBAW

I'm just an ugly autistic freak who fell for the tranny meme, and that's okay. There's nothing to become or overcome. I crossdress once a week but as long as it's in private there is no harm being committed.

>>40329480
Where do you get your clothes? What do you wear?

now at the point where extremely nonpassing women give me the same kind of pain that you would get from seeing a youngshit

>>40329433
why would you ever WANT to be forced to stay repping??? I'm actually forced to stay repping by life circumstance and genetics, it's horrible because repping really really fucking sucks. I don't understand why anyone would ever choose to live a miserable fake life in a disgusting body if not doing so is a legitimate available option for them, which it apparently was for you since you trooned in the first place. Your town literally had a tranny doctor, you had it on easy mode. If retarded child me was smart enough to not irreversibly ruin my life by missing the very short window I had before it was too late I would have had to DIY or Uber hours away and pray to God that my parents didn't find out.

>>40330239
grim

>>40328027
I'm too gigamasculine for anyone to ever suggest something like this to me even as a joke

>>40327954
discord is a bad example, it requires you to have friends

>>40327954
> supports trans rights without meaning or purpose to do so (may conflict with their political alignment)
> may seem very educated when the topic of trans people is being discussed or may abstain entirely from the conversation
literally me
whenever my normie cuckservative dad talks about the wacky trannies he saw on the TV/faceberg I derail by talking about how horrible real women are or start being vaguely antisemetic until he gets uncomfortable and changes the subject to something non-political

>>40327370
yeah

>>40305661
you should dress like picrel, it's how I would dress if I could but I think the style is androgynous enough that it might appeal to a femrepper too.
(never watched the anime btw sorry I'm a fake fan, just thought her outfit looked cool when people draw her)

Someone come pick him up
>>530522501
>>530523241

I am so jealous of lesbians it's making me extremely bitter

they should give all reppers one feminine man a year to torture and kill

>>40328998
> honestly feel way less hopeful for the ones going outside and trying to be normal
Hmm. That’s my cope

>>40331509
Is that link and zelda kissing?

>>40331549
it's those 2 girls from ferien

>>40331552
ohh. Thanks for the correction

I wish I were a woman

>>40331572
Hi, are you the same anon from before?

anyone else cautiously excited for the new GiTS anime?

>>40330239
Oh dear. I’m only at the stage where I start hating myself when I see a youngshit

>>40331579
No

>>40331972
Oh ok

>>40331975
I don't know what anon you're talking about, I posted this phrase before but not any time recently

>>40331509
That's very naive of you

it's not fair. I wish I was born a woman.

I hate men so much. Straight men, and bi men, and gay men. They all act the fucking same.

>>40331554
Nah they're from Dungeon Meshi

>>40332018
I mean fantasy lesbians not real ones

>>40332120
I wish I could even fantasize. About men or about women.
But it always boils down to the same old with the fantasy lesbians, the butch destroying and diminishing the lesser femme one, or else it's the usual mandated dick correction straight men demand.

It's so liberating when you accept that being a failed man doesn't make you a woman.

>>40332170
A failed man, a failed rapist

I just live for the football. (British version) It’s the only time I can ever forget about my dysphoria and my real life problems. It’s one of the only times I don’t mind being a man as a much.

But then it’s one of the reasons why I rep. Repping hides me away from being myself. Repping makes me sad.

I want giant heaving breasts and wide hips.
God it's not fair.
WHY CAN'T I BE AN ANIME GIRL

anyone here keep attempting to surround themselves with women to cope?
not even in a romantic way... like. just having women around.
i feel like if i can't ever be a women, the next best thing would be to have women by my side constantly.

I think my real self could very easily just be erased and replaced with something completely generic and acceptable. I don't have any real backbone at all, any bit of pressure makes me completely doubt everything.

>>40332346
It might work but then you would just be constantly be reminded of your dysphoria. But I think it would be worth it overall.

>>40332346
I wish.
I think being on this site with its majority of men is destroying me mentally

>>40331509
i'm insanely jealous of straight women. i wish i was a straight woman

>>40332294
who do you support?

>>40332144
Sorry to hear that I just fantasize about kissing and cuddling usually. I only masturbate like once every fortnight now.

>>40332400
Tbh, If I say on here I’d just be giving away where I live lol. But it’s a team in the championship. We used to play in the prem but not anymore

>>40332314
Can't relate. I want to be a loli.

>>40332396
It upsets me. Straight women are allowed to be attracted to whatever they want, really. But me I'm supposed to have the tastes of a stereotypical gay bottom if I ever want to be attracted to a man. But I can't feel attracted to a guy in the sense that I want to be the one fucking him

>>40332414
Lolis are anime girls.

>>40332369
well, i've had mixed results with that. i don't feel dysphoric since i dissociate heavily when i socialize with women, and it feels amazing to live vicariously through them, so it does help my dysphoria.
i've made four close female friends in the last year. Friends A and B developed obsessions with me (I cut off contact with A because of reasons), and C started ghosting me after realizing I was friends with D. I can't talk with D because of reasons so now I only have B left, but goddamn is she persistent with her feelings...
Every single fucking one of them asked me if I was going out with the other ones.
like wtf. can't men and women just be friends?
i don't even want a romantic relationship since playing the role of a man in a relationship would make me feel extreme dysphoria. i'd rather kill myself than be a boyfriend or husband.

>>40332430
>I can't feel attracted to a guy in the sense that I want to be the one fucking him
neither can i and honestly the idea grosses me out. i also think straight men are hotter than gay men. even gay men who attempt to be masculine are somehow feminine and that gives me the ick

>>40332430
i don't know if i can even call myself bisexual. l like men only because i like their dicks. and i want their dicks in me. i don't want my dick in them. but otherwise i'm not particularly attracted to men.

>>40332462
I guess I'm not really the same in that sense. I really envy how women can be into feminine men if they want.

>>40332482
i see. yeah i only really like masculine guys

>be overweight
>hate my body
>lose weight
>skeleton is now more visible
>don't feel any better

>>40332508
literally me desu. i feel like i look more masculine after losing weight

>>40332491
I like masculine guys too. I just feel like I have to though.

>>40332457
Oh wow. All I know is that female relationships are very complicated. Despite wishing I was born a woman, I don’t think I’ll be able to comprehend them. But I’m hoping to find some female friends in the future. Hopefully at uni but the course I am doing is like 95% men lol

>>40332524
>I don’t think I’ll be able to comprehend them
me too. Friend A acted fucking incomprehensible. She was obsessed with me but I was never able to figure out whether it was because she was just lonely or she had feelings for me.
she told me straight to my face she would never fall in love with me... which is fine. like i'm glad she told me that. i don't want women to fall in love with me if they perceive me as a man. but she acted very sus.

>ate all my free time
>wants to go with me if i go to another country
>tells me she doesn't want me to have to other friends, at all
>tells me that i should be closer to her than any potential romantic partner
>gets pissed if i don't reply to her texts immediately
>gets pissed at the idea of me finding other women more attractive
>hangs out with me so fucking much, so long, and so often people used to assume she lived at my house
>sends me pictures of herself in revealing clothing

let me repeat that she once told me, she would never fall in love with me. ever. that she doesn't have any romantic feelings at all for me. so yeah. some women are hard to understand. so i guess she had a platonic obsession with me.
i tolerated her bullshit because i lived vicariously through her. it's not that i liked her romantically, but more like I wanted to be her. she had the ideal body i would want to have if i were a women. a real life legal loli... she was also into women, and i wanted her to get a girlfriend. she got a boyfriend though... which is okay. it hurt not because I was jealous, but because I was projecting all my lesbian fantasies on her. turns out she was bisexual...
she was unfortunately terrible for my mental health since she guilt-tripped me often and she constantly monopolized all of my free time and she expected so many demands from me. so i had to cut off contact with her.

>>40332662
Did she ever suspect that you were a repper? Or anything like that?

>>40332434
They don't usually have giant heaving breasts and wide hips though

>>40332770
she knew, from the very beginning of our friendship. that i wanted to be a woman. i told her as such.
we became friends because both of us liked yuri. and she wondered why i liked yuri so much despite being a guy. i told her i consumed yuri as a coping mechanism for my dypshoria.
she accepted it. and was fine with it.
she told me once that she fantasizes about me being a woman all the time. like. what... even when i'm in the same room as her.

she even told me that she would have fallen in love with me if I were born a woman.
that really fucking hurt.

>>40332802
Says you

>>40332817
> she even told me that she would have fallen in love with me if I were born a woman.
that really fucking hurt.

Ohh I can imagine. Damm


Also I’m guessing yuri is a type of anime? - I’ve never consumed anime in my life lol

There may well be parts of her that wanted you to live your life as a girl. Maybe

Maybe none of it's real and it's all just a matter of coercion and peer pressure

Being a girl would suck after 18 anyway

>>40332899
*13

>>40332870
yuri is a genre of japanese fiction about close relationships between women. it doesn't have to be romantic, necessarily, but a lot of popular yuri works are lesbian works anyway.
I like yuri because a lot of yuri works are idealistic and escapist. i don't like western lesbian works because too often they seriously examine lesbian relationships and the consequences.
i consume fiction to escape, not to fucking learn about reality all over again.
anyway. i think she just really wanted me to be a girl, i guess. she even called me with a feminine name when it was just the two of us (her suggestion, not mine). she's so used to calling me with a feminine name in her mind too, that when she gets emotional she sometimes blurts out the that name instead of my actual name when there's other people. that was embarrassing...

>>40332899
>>40332906
sorry but this is incel talk

It's all my fault, isn't it? Everything that ever went wrong in my life was caused by my own hands.
I'm lazy, ungrateful and a narcissist. I didn't have many friends growing up because I was too emotionally stunted to figure out how to be interested in other people. I'm behind in life because laziness has completely taken over my body and mind.
Imagining myself as a woman is merely an escapist fantasy where I don't need to deal with the problems I caused, and so I could start anew without consequence. I don't have a woman's mind/soul/whatever, and I'll never have. The differences between me and the average woman is extreme. We look different (duh), we act different, we ARE different. There is no sense of similarity between me and the natural feminine.
I hate myself.

>>40331581
There's another one? If it's 3D like the previous one then no, I hate 3D anime.

>>40333417
>If it's 3D like the previous one
nope, it's 2d and supposed to be an adaptation of the manga for the first time in gits history

>>40333475
Ah. I dislike the Major's personality in the manga so I probably won't enjoy it.

I had a dream where I was fully trooning, normal feminine haircut, makeup, clothing, and had the full support and advice of my sister in laws too
I still looked at the mirror in disgust and called myself a massive lantern jawed gangly limbed troon, and then ran away from the sister in laws while shooting arrows through my face and getting them lodged in my gigantic thick skull

>>40332931
> blurts out the that name instead of my actual name when there's other people. that was embarrassing...
lol

When I was younger I always hated when my sister used to call me the girl version of my name.

Also would you recommend I try get into anime? Am I more likely to get into given I have autism perhaps?

>>40332817
>even told me that she would have fallen in love with me if I were born a woman
I’ve been told this multiple times by male friends and they always think it’s a compliment and I have to politely thank them for it or laugh it off
Oh Anon you’re so great, would be the perfect partner, oh if only you were a girl you’d be wife material.
Thanks.

>>40333743
>while shooting arrows through my face and getting them lodged in my gigantic thick skull
Well that's odd.

tossed out my hrt a few days ago, not feeling better or worse desu

>>40333748
you mean yuri anime? or just anime in general.
there's not a lot of yuri anime unfortunately, and a lot of the the ones that do exist are those 12-25 episode ones made with the expectation that you'll just read the manga/light novel/web novel/whatever to continue the plot.
if you mean anime in general, why not. anime is a more of a medium than a genre, and i'm sure there's some anime out there you would like. i'm a bit biased though because i got so into japanese media that i learned to understand japanese, lol (i don't care about speaking).

it's not fair

the only solace we have is that our accursed existence will eventually end at some point. until then the only thing we can do is cope.

>walking on the streets
>walk past a lingerie store
>start thinking about which ones I'd wear were I born a gal
>day ruined
Okay then.

>>40334177
Alr thanks

>>40334295
I always feel awkward and don’t know how to act whenever I walk past a lingerie store. Like I really don’t want to look at it for too long to a point where it becomes suspicious.

>>40334406
I just take a screenshot in my mind of the clothes on the mannequins outside then think about them later when I already walked past the store.

>>40334548
Hehe. Out of curiosity, do you imagine yourself with a vagina and boobs as well?

i've been overeating as a cope and now i feel fat and disgusting. fuck i guess it's diet time

I dislike guys. Every interaction feels fake and they are having to have a competition. But women like guys, and see nothing wrong with their behavior and I'm truly alone in this. Ultimately women are attracted to guys and that's all there is to it. There's no chance of living a happy life as a fake woman that is just a man. There is a chance as a man if I can get my depression and anxiety under control.

>>40334779
When just thinking about being a gal, yes.
When focusing on lingerie, I focus on the lingerie itself and what it would look like on me were I a gal. So while there's no pp bulge if I imagine myself wearing panties and it's clear there's a 'gina under said panties, I don't focus on the 'gina itself. Same goes for bras. Like sure those bras cover up a nice pair of boobs, but the focus is on the bras, not on the boobs. If I imagine myself naked not wearing anything, I also imagine what my boobs would feel like and how my tight cunt would look.
Kinda disgusting that I have thoughts like that imho.
What about you?

>>40335094
> Kinda disgusting that I have thoughts like that imho.
Err. Most people won’t understand. But some will.

> What about you?
I’ve done some of the weirdest shit that I would kill myself from embarrassment if anyone ever found out. Like using balloons to represent breasts and trying to make my anus look like a vagina. But I think that’s kinda more of an agp thing I have.

But yeah, us reppers miss out on soo much.

>>40334899
>he thinks women don't compete in who is prettier, richer, who has a hotter boyfriend, who has better vacations etc

you got a lot to learn

>>40334899
suck my brown girlcock, reppoid

how many of you niggers are in your teens and twenties? probably over half
https://strawpoll.com/ajnE15a4MnW
better a youngshit or midshit than an oldshit
if you're under 29, start estrogen immediately. i don't care how ugly you think you are. Gen Alpha/Gen Z reppers are NOT valid

> any 80-97 year olds that use 4chan?

>>40336685
I'm in my 30s

>>40336685
I already tried trooning. It was the wrong decision. 26

Let's say you wake up 100 years from now when it's possible to move your mind to a completely female body, but all of your transphobic friends and family do too. Would you still find a reason to rep?

>>40336966
I would just take the cure for dysphoria so I could be happy in my body.

>>40337066
>cure for dysphoria
Yeah dude they found it, guess what it is?
>>40336966
>move your mind to a completely female body

>>40337115
Bro doesn't know the difference between a cure and a treatment. disappointing!

>>40337159
I guess that's one for yes, they would still rep.

>>40337177
I wouldn't need to rep because I would be cured of my mental disorder.

It's 100 years in the future I'm sure they have it by now.

i literally gaslit myself into thinking i had dysphoria and now it's ruined my life
why did this happen

I feel confused. I desperately want an excuse to transition, it feels like my brain is trying to amplify the dysphoria I have.

>>40337387
My brain keeps trying to make me order diy even if my living situation makes it risky.

>>40332346
I do the opposite of this

>>40337387
>>40337418
just order it idiots, you cant be dumb enough to think it'll just go away

I love reading pessimistic literature. Someone laying out why the world is garbage is so refreshing when you're surrounded by brain dead normalfag optimism all the time.

>>40337494
I just said it would be risky.

>>40336966
fuck no lol
sorry guys I'm not passing up my dream come true

I don't feel like I'm a real person, everything about me is fake

>>40336966
>but all of your transphobic friends and family do too.
is body changing normalized in society or are people equally paranoid as fuck about former males?

>Would you still find a reason to rep?
i'd be scared of going through with the procedure but at this point the body would just be an upgrade no?

>>40337742
>is body changing normalized in society or are people equally paranoid as fuck about former males?
It's mainstream and discrimination is illegal, but bioconservatives who look down on you and the technology still exist and live in the sort of places you'd expect.

>>40337494
I know it won’t go away. I’m just trying to convince my self I can live with it. To what extent does it get worse as I get older?

>>40337793
>but bioconservatives who look down on you and the technology still exist and live in the sort of places you'd expect.
if i can avoid them and they aren't actively trying to fuck with me who cares
they can stay normal humans i'll have my perfect female body

In some ways I like being male and I dont regret it but I still occasionally slip up and just just think "wow I wish I was a woman" but then I realize I'm doing it again and clear my mind and think about something else

>>40338384
Same, maybe we are non binary or something

I fantasize about being an agp mtf with zero attraction to men but give sloppy, glorpy head to my best guy friend because he asked nicely. Bonus points if he knows I'm agp and am doing it out of obligation (in this fantasy I can't date women because of my predatory malebrained sexuality).

>>40336685
i AM valid :(

>>40336685
>if you're under 29, start estrogen immediately
i turn 29 next week
does this still apply to me

>>40339551
yes

i hate agp i hate agp i hate agp this shit is so fucking embarrassing i don't deserve this

I'm hot as a guy but would be ugly if I trooned