yeh. I just mostly feel depressed off hrt and have general sense of well being on it. but I refuse to transition again. I would rather die. unfortunately ssris effect size is like 0 so not really sure what I can do to be happy. maybe I'm only depressed because I'm thinking too hard and not doing enough real life physical action to be healthy and socially active

In some ways I like being male and I dont regret it but I still occasionally slip up and just just think "wow I wish I was a woman" but then I realize I'm doing it again and clear my mind and think about something else