>Boyfriend gets caught on Grindr
>Tells me he was planning to break up with me because he didn’t feel I was putting in enough effort
>We talk it over and he begs me for a second chance
>I give in because we have great chemistry and besides this incident everything’s been fine
>Few months pass
>I notice that he got a Snap notification from someone named Random Twink. Wasn’t spying, just happened to see it
>I ask him to show me it
>It’s a nude, and there was one from a week prior that he’d saved and reacted to with the fire emoji thingy
>I leave him there and then
>He tries to win me back ever since
>I tell him that I think I’d need to be able to see his phone now and again to slowly build trust back up
>He says he can’t do that because it’s too invasive
>He still wants me back though
>Six months pass of being just friends
>Fast forward to now
>He says he can give me the phone now, because he realises he just wants me
>He buys an expensive romantic cabin safari trip thingy for us
>I don’t know if I can actually agree to trying again, if I’ll ever be able to look at him the same way or contemplate marriage with him
>Chemistry is unmatched, and if it weren’t for him doing what he did I’d say he was the perfect match for me

Don’t know what decision to make! I know it’s my decision alone, but needed to vent. Saying goodbye to a whole future is a heavy decision to make I feel.