We've been dating for 8 years, I want to eventually live with her, and maybe have kids. But for now we don't live together, the situation will change but not soon.
Also, there's this girl at work that I'm starting to like, we've been talking more recently, and she's so nice, she's so much younger though. I don't know if she likes me or not, but I feel she has a different attitude towards me, kinda flirty, could be all in my head of course.
Thing is, I'm actually considering trying something. But how would I even do that? We don't get that much time alone, and I'm not sure if I could blatantly flirt with her. First, I just don't know how to flirt, and I would have to find the right situation, and be sure she's down. Plus I would still feel bad doing something like that, and I'm too afraid to behave inappropriately. But even if she does actually like me, maybe she wouldn't even try anything, because I'm much older, and she knows I have a girlfriend. Also I think this is just because I see her too much, more than my actual girlfriend.
Obviously you guys will think I'm an asshole, and that may be true, but even though I love my girlfriend, I feel like I lost my entire youth with her, along with many experiences I never had, and continue to miss many experiences. Monogamy is bullshit dude, like I'm supposed to not have any other romantic experiences until the day I die? That's just a sad and boring life. And I don't want to break up with my girlfriend either, I want to have kids with her and all that. But either way, I feel like even if I had those experiences now, it would be just dating single moms from dating apps, I feel like it's already over for me, I'm just old and I feel I didn't enjoy my youth enough.
This was about this specific coworker, but I want to meet girls in general (doing some hobby or something), just to feel fucking alive. I lived with depression, low confidence, and looking like shit for years, now I'm much better and I want to enjoy life.
What do?