>>96028946
>it is equally possible that any given board wipe will be 1st or 15th from the top of your deck.
>the mathematical probabilities do not shift according to your feelings
Cool. I don't think you understand that the cards in my deck are only mathematically random, in reality they are in a particular order, and if you mill cards that would be particularly useful to me, it is no consolation to say you might not have milled those cards. You did mill them.
Take a look at pic related if you're still struggling with the concept of objective reality.