I find myself overwhelmed by feelings of dread, shame, and fear all day long. I can't find the answer, not even in my worthless inner self, nor in the outer world: That's because I'm right, and those feelings are rational and irrefutable.

I feel like I could only be happy by reprogramming myself, by forcing my brain to forget.

Have you ever felt like this? I feel like I would sell my soul to the devil just to forget and be able to move on with my life.