>>512069076
to be enlightened is to stand ever vigilant at the gates of one's own mind
your thoughts may seem to originate on their own, but you - the real you, the one that has been watching from the inside from the beginning and for whom this has all been one long now - choose what thoughts you entertain. choose to not entertain the thought. when the thought comes, identify that it is occurring and make a conscious decision to not follow it - then think of something else. it helps immensely to have something else to think about, something prepared - when i start to think about x, ill start thinking about y instead. base the y thoughts on being grateful for something you have. keep doing this and the suicide thoughts will come less and less. eventually they'll probably stop altogether. entrain/program your own mind. heal thyself