I think Japan is beautiful and the aesthetics of housing and just everything in general is the closest thing to heaven to me, but I don't want to learn the language because I know I'll never be Japanese and it's pointless to try and become one of them. I've kind of accepted that I'll never get to live my dream life, and that's ok. Closing my eyes at night and pretending I'm sleeping next to a cute chick in a room like picrel is close enough for me.