Been going through a suicidal period recently, to the point I was eyeing up razor blades in the shop last week, and have been drinking a lot. Getting drunk on my own in the house multiple times a week. I was reading a book today where a character reveals the secret truth about alcoholism. He says plain and simply,
>"It's sadness"
And that is the truth. I need to quit drinking and get things back on track. But I'm not doing a good job of it cause I'm drunk right now. I need one more thing to stop drinking. One more magic moment. Probably will take me almost killing myself during a hangover but whatever it it is I'm not there yet.