I think I've officially hit the age where I can't get away with living a sedentary lifestyle and only eating three small meals a day. The bulk of my diet is satchet porridge and sparsely garnished sandwiches. I feel so weak in body, mind, and spirit. Is it better to walk more, or to eat more first? I always feel like I don't really deserve to eat good food, it's not an eating disorder, it's a general self-worth thing. I commute on foot so I've always seen that as my leg exercise, maybe 45 minutes a day, but spend most the day at the office desk and most the evening sprawled out on my bed dreading sleep and aching all over. People talk to me about dead serious matters and I'm barely 50% there, more like 30%. I can't see these issues being resolved at this point, seems I've also officially hit the age where I'm a lost cause. I'm teetotal and have always lived a clean, frugal, safe and extremely boring life for the sake of the "future" too. Sort of fucked up really. I'm only guilty of being anon, that is my crime, and also my punishment.