I'm a huge bitch and need a lovingly abusive boyfriend to beat me up and make me cry so I can find some degree of catharsis and release from the constant emotional weights like anvils that pull my heart into darkness
and then after, when I'm still heavily dissociating and hardly responding, he'll take advantage of me however he pleases and won't judge me if she regression type stuff happens and then when he's done we'll cuddle and fall asleep and if I'm lucky I won't have blacked it all out in the morning

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I think it's cringe but I have fantasies about getting kidnapped and either forced into being a rich guy's pet/slave who he has physically modified to reinforce my submission to him by like removing my vocal chords or amputating my feet or hands so I'm more dependent on him, or used as a sex slave for some military guys who work as interrogators and they let their frustrations out on me without restraint
those are both cringe, cnc especially desu
I also like getting tied up or restrained with bondage stuff or suspended or whatever but that's not as cringe I don't think