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Thank you all for the suggestions and sharing your experiences! Unfortunately for my case, coping mechanisms of any kind are really ineffective due to how severe the disorder is. If the ball starts rolling, is nearly impossible to stop until either I throw up and its over, or I sedate myself with antipsychotics. But even then, taking the medicine makes me anxious in fear of getting desensitized to the meds to the point where they may no longer work.

Its a very hellish paradox, if I try to cope it will punish me. Like a rubber band, the more I pull away the tighter it gets.

I'm sure that peace will come to me in time, at least I am hoping so. One day I will find a break in the loop and it won't have power over me anymore.

Currently I am working on getting therapy and psychoanalysis to help with the issue.