Honest question. Much of my life is spent searching for things to distract myself from my various mental illnesses but I very rarely enjoy anything for any substantial amount of time.
I see things like picrel and I get extremely jealous, I can fleetingly imagine for a second or two at a time what it might be like but I just know that if it was me in that scenario I'd only be thinking about what is next/what I can do to make the situation better and inevitably fail at that as well.

Could you just describe to me what it's like to actually enjoy yourself lol