Thread 33265066

Honest question. Much of my life is spent searching for things to distract myself from my various mental illnesses but I very rarely enjoy anything for any substantial amount of time.
I see things like picrel and I get extremely jealous, I can fleetingly imagine for a second or two at a time what it might be like but I just know that if it was me in that scenario I'd only be thinking about what is next/what I can do to make the situation better and inevitably fail at that as well.

Could you just describe to me what it's like to actually enjoy yourself lol

>>33265066 (OP)
It's like seeing a puppy and then immediately kicking it
Your whole life and body have been preparing your for this moment. Your tastes, your possesions, your responsibilities all align into a a coherent arrow and you just pull it back and shoot it

>>33265074
... kicking the puppy?
sounds brown. maybe im better off.

>>33265079
Joy and woe go hand in hand

>>33265066 (OP)
Cold drink, some snacks, and video games on a friday night? Feels good. For about 30 minutes. Then it just feels normal. And in a few hours you’re back to feeling like shit.

It is what it is.

And no you are not morally superior for experiencing anhedonia, the puppy kicking analogy was merely that; an analogy
I could have just as easily said seeing a flower and then smelling it but that's some gay shit imo

>>33265085
>Feels good. For about 30 minutes.
I pretty much inhale my food so for me the regret sets in pretty fast. I pretty much just do one-meal-a-day and then fast over the weekends lately because I've started to realize that appetite is an illusion

>>33265086
you're Indian

>>33265098
I'm a cornfed midwesterner but I'm also a satanist and quite sophisticated

>>33265107
<<< reddit is that way pal

>>33265109
What the fuck did you just fucking say about me you little bitch

>>33265066 (OP)
It's much easier if you're introverted, as you don't rely on other's distractions to be happy and you can truly enjoy things for yourself. It's the best feeling in the world when I play videogames and enjoy some home-made cookies or cake alone on Friday night's.

>>33265066 (OP)
It feels giddy and you can't believe how lucky you are

>>33265129
i use to make cakes and cookies lol i'd bring some over for my grandparents to try but now they're both dead and i have body dysmorphia so i barely eat and still feel like a disgusting fat slob who deserves to die

>>33265669
fatty