Desperate move.
I think i should Just remove myself i dont fit anywhere
Not with the natives Here and Not with the Muslim or Muslime whores
I am jus
Tvsupposed to end myself

If you ever read/watch Higurashi, you know what this "syndrome" is about. It's fair to say that it provokes intrusive thoughts, paranoia, delusions, hallucinations (including delusions of parasitosis), and in last terms, psychosis and depersonalization of the individual

I'm afraid that something like that might be happening to me. I should check it with a psychologist, but I don't even trust the healthcare system. To put you in context, this is what has been happening to me in the last weeks or even months:
>Distrusting my fellow acquaintances
>Confront them using some degree of violence for apparently no reason
>Thinking about a way to kill them, dispose the bodies and flee from my city
>Believing that all of them are connected somehow, and are plotting something against me
>Believing that they might be even reading what I've been posting here, even if I'm anonymous and I'm giving no hints of who I am
>Believing that they might even be in touch with people they have nothing to do with, and that I know from certain websites or social networks, like Discord or Twitter/X, Steam...
>Convince myself that I don't need them, and that I'm a monster anyway so why should I care if I kill or hurt them

As you can tell, it's not nice to be this paranoid at this point in life. I don't want to hurt anybody, but I don't want them to be near or talk to me in any way. Some of them are apparently taking distance from me, and I can't blame them. But that reinforces the idea that they are plotting something, as if they were hunters praying on their victim. I need to put an end to this