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>be me, big UFO fan but despite the anecdotal evidence, eventually convince myself Grays aren't real due to "Mirage Men" documentary
>be on a road trip with my hot blonde curvy friend with benefits who's into astrology and some paranormal stuff
>start talking about paranornal podcasts, bring up Otherworld and the "crossed arms" case
>"Oh yeah Anon, I wake up with my arms crossed like that all the time, usually after I have the 'alien dreams' I've been having since I was a kid"
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>she proceeds to go deeper in on her abduction experiences than she ever has before, describing sleep paralysis moments where she saw Grays touching her parents and "examining" them in bed, the repeat nature of the dreams including the memory of people having sex aboard a UFO type craft that she was ushered past by the Grays, the memory of other kids being there with her and them being scared and freaking out, and a memory of an older "doctor" looking Gray who showed her Earth outside a porthole window

I keep getting into the space with UFO research where I convince myself it all must be bullshit, it must be, because there would be proof if not. And then getting disillusioned by Luis Elizondo and the very staged looking "whistleblower" movement.

And then something like this happens and I have no idea how to feel. My friend is very spiritual and "wooey-woo" but she's not a liar. If she says she had some kind of experience, I believe her.

But what the hell does it mean? Are we a zoo? She even mentioned they do "checkups" on her reproductive organs in the dreams. Why would that be necessary? What the hell is the purpose of all of this? Are these experiences objective and real, or subjective and spiritual? Is it the government doing weird shit with our reproductive systems for nefarious purposes, or ayy lmaos taking eggs and sperm to set up some kind of backup human population in case we nuke ourselves, or making alien hybrids? It really fucks with me.