>>82132860
>It's been a full week since I stopped drinking and it's starting to get much easier. I've been extremely depressed for a while and now I feel like I'm finally starting to feel like my old self.
that's great! well done. must have been hard.

>Depending on how I'm feeling I might play some vydjya, or go straight to bed.
for me it's straight to bed now. what are you playing?

>That whole arm is probably gonna be just scar tissue by the time I've beaten this. It already looks really bad. It's hard to tell the difference between a scab and a scar anymore.
i always recommend getting an aloe vera plant. the gel is great for treating burns. good luck fighting the urge. you can do it.

>all of my problems are my fault
i understand the sentiment, but we're all being set up for failure from the very start. everyone around you makes it impossible for you to stay away from that shit and then acts like it's your fault. it's good you're taking responsibility, but don't let the people who set you up get away scot free.

>sometimes I get so hateful at myself I need to do something to release that anger. So I turn it inward and disfigured my own arm.
well, at least you only turn it against yourself. others aren't as considerate.

>It'll be a lot easier to pay it off and live if I'm not drinking half my paycheck away, so right now I'm looking towards the future with very nervous optimism.
i'm rooting for you, fren. it's not going to be easy, but you can do it. we'll support you as good as we can.