>>40854244
I'm 27 and I feel I was in the same boat as you. All I can say is what worked for me: I hit rock bottom. I couldn't feel anything except a pain in my chest. Here's where you and I differ, at that time the pain made me choose to abandon everything I believed. I jettisoned every ideology, fear, desire, and sad story I had about myself, and just let myself be a sad lump that just wants to feel happy again. This led to me exploring my curiosities again without inhibition, I watched some extremely good movies, read some extremely good books, and now I feel good again. I don't have a 'purpose' so to speak, but I do have passions that I cultivate, and my clean living facilitates those passions. You need to let go of everything you think you know, let go of all obligations. If you're truly dead inside, why do you fear pain? Humiliation? Why do you need to be right? Throw it all away and pursue your passions and curiosity without restraint.