>>713670741
get out of my head

>>713670895
I care about failing more than anyone ever will for me. I'm so fucking tired of a bunch of retards in my life getting pissy whenever I even express the mere idea of an independent thought.
'BUT ANON, HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU THAT IF YOU (FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS) YOU'LL STARVE ON THE STREET LIKE A DOG AND THAT IF YOU FOLLOW (MY OWN DREAM THAT I FAILED TO ACHIEVE) EVERYTHING WILL BE SO PERFECT?'

I'm so fucking tired. Nearly 8 years of forcing myself to go through a college course I despise and can't stop failing at. Almost 10 years of working a menial job that pays minimum wage and has no room for higher payment or promotions. If I had access to firearms, I would've definitely already blown my brains out. But since I don't, I feel like my only choice is to spit on everyone's face and follow my own way, and it doesn't matter whether I fail or succeed. It'll be my mistake, my victory. Fuck everyone else, fuck their failures, fuck their victories. Delusional assholes, all of them