i keep having nightmares of entering hell which is like an ongoing thing but they are getting not as scary anymore also i’m pretty sure hell is a godless place just like of nothingness and not the worst things i can think of regardless my fear of it is dwindling also it is an inevitably so im hoping to move on from everything soon bc its been made abundantly clear time and time again i cant do anything right and rare times i do they still fall through as if im not supposed to be here or participating in anything. good luck to those who have it bc i dont sometimes i hate you but ik its wrong that deep down i dont. i hope everything goes as well as possible for everyone