also if any amount of this is confusing or sounds contradictory, I want to clarify, I've watched porn for about 9 years, ever since I was 11. I used to only ever watch heterosexual porn, and did so for years, never thinking, or feeling anything to the contrary, outside of perhaps a fixation on the pleasure of the females in what I was watching. It went to things like futa, femboys and all of that at one point and got gayer as time went on. I don't think I'm "just gay", I beleive this stuff to be a byproduct of the porn I was consuming and I beleive it's had an effect on my psyche, somewhat simalar to the effect of the trauma of being raped, I don't think it's all natural, if at all natural.