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>you seem kind of sad that happened
Well, yeah. He's my "the one that got away" I guess. I did love him, but I was too insecure about my sexuality to recognize that, so I deluded myself into thinking it was just casual sex. Even though I knew he loved me, and despite the fact that no girl has made me as horny as I got making out with him, nor as contented as the way I felt chilling out cuddling and playing vidya together with him after sex. If I got back together with him again now... idk, I would be interested in hooking up, but I would feel like I don't "deserve" to get with him anymore, if that makes sense.

I'm more comfortable with my sexuality now, but still figuring it out. I'm open to a few friends about being "bi" even though lately I've been wondering if I'm still just deluding myself and actually I'm just flat-out gay. Problem is that I haven't yet had any proper, full-blown boyfriend to confirm whether or not I really prefer guys romantically to girls. My dick works just fine for girls, but god knows none of my relationships with them ever seem to work out...