>>937536930I broke up with my gf amicably when we left for different colleges. But I continued hooking up with her brother whenever I was back for holidays and summer breaks. We were only two years apart, so nobody was suspicious that we remained friends and continued hanging out after me and his sister broke up. Even though most of our "hanging out" just consisted of me venting all my repressed homolust by fucking the daylights out of him.
He was definitely head over heels in love with me. But I was still guilty and insecure and kinda in denial about my gay side. End result is that I basically strung him along for years... we'd have lots of romantic pillow talk during/after sex. but I kept pursuing girls when I was back at school.
He let me string him along for a couple years, up until he got into the same college I was going to. He was very excited and expected us to sign up to share a dorm where we'd have all the privacy we ever wanted and be able to live as secret or maybe even open boyfriends... but I balked at the idea. I was just too immature/cowardly to go along with it, even though I did have feelings for him. Didn't even have the balls to say "I'm not ready to date a guy", instead I came up with some lame excuse about having already promised to room with another friend of mine.
Our relationship fell apart after that. We hooked up a few more times and made some attempts to hang out on campus, but he quickly found a supportive friend group with actual gay guys in it, came out of the closet, and then starting dating another openly gay guy. Basically grew past me and left me behind (though I completely deserved it).