>>81962420
No violent/threatening thoughts like that, but the recurring thoughts about times I behaved in stupid, evil or cringe ways have been getting more intrusive over the years. Two or three years ago the thoughts would get so bad that I started physically jolting and vocally reacting whenever they occurred, but after I remind myself that it's okay to recognize but let these thoughts pass, it's usually fine.
I also think daily smoking of cannabis for an extended time (about two years consistently) has definitely exacerbated neurotic thoughts and behaviors that I've always dealt with.

I feel like if the neuroticism got way worse I could potentially go into psychosis or schizophrenia, but so far I've been stable enough mostly.