>>33362086
well I'm throwing my little tantrum rn, so I'd bitch and ruin it. I didn't/don't like myself, or parts of myself. And I loop deep into that self resentment, even I know it goes beyond just "im lonely gib gf".. So if I do things I like more and like myself more again than I can give love more effectively. I'd want to date slow, go places together, talk and find out if we are actually a good pair. If I even could add to her life and vice versa. I wonder if the same Void that Limrance is trying to fill is related to Fearing when a Girl actually likes me back. Which frankly is quite often, it's just never the onitis my tism makes me WANT. I gotta get my shit together and settle most men do. Settle for what tho, but "she's" settling for me right I have my flaws so many