Im genuinely the most creative guy you would hope to come across,but i have fucking nothing to prove it. My mind is extremely bizarre functioning in a way that gives me euphoria just daydreaming and thinking about concepts-ideas for games,GAME MECHANICS n how they would function or come together,character concepts and designs,colour patterns,scenes,scenery,amazing music playing in my head(and my voice is too monotonous for me to voice record the melodies in order to remember them),thinking about possible past lives ive had and experiences in them give me amazing feelings,thinking of bizarre/absurd/surreal/slapstick concepts and situations,worldbuilding random details and histories and fkn truly unique shit that would blow the fuck away all the elder scrolls lore faggots, could list off a bunch of other shit but i already lost track, film ideas, fun video ideas, personal esoteric discoveries insights or just "meme" shit with potential to go viral, etc. My mind even amuses me just with combining words or letters in ways that i find enjoyable funny or cool, creating character names or just names for random non existing shit.
Im not joking when i am saying this that i am walking goldmine of ideas that could change gaming and more. What only separates me from like a renaissance genius is admittedly i cannot perhaps do it with "purpose", like u know when they did some super crazy painting and there is like profound mathematical architectural anatomical shit within it etc stuff like that - i cant and wont be able to and im not too bothered about that.
My only problem is that historically through my life i cannot make myself do shit. Ill start doing something then abandon it within minutes. Its crazy. Im 27 now and ive been trying to make myself do something since age 12, its given me a lot of fucking stress in my life. Thankfully i discovered taoism not so long ago so i dont really bother about anything anymore.
I am elder god tier idea guy