>>81588518
I don't have any medication, I do not like taking medication. It's hard to relax. I worked last Saturday so I would have extra money then I get sick and miss today so I didn't make any extra money, might lose money if I don't work tomorrow.
I overworked myself Saturday to get the day over with and didn't work out at home because I was so sore. Didn't work yesterday because I wanted one day where I could lower my expectations for myself and just do nothing. Then I get sick can't eat and dead tired so no lifting. I'm looking in the mirror and it's like my efforts these past months to gain weight and build muscle are just gone byebye all that work, all that effort flushed away haha you'll always be thin and weak stupid. That's it I try and try and try and I just fail over and over and over again.
This nonsense takes it toll on my mind and I have trouble relaxing. I'm sorry I went on a negative bend there.
>i wish you a sweet recovery
Thank you. You are too kind. I feel a bit better being able to organize my thoughts like this and converse with you, thank you.