Only a little bit more than a week til I'm a whole year sh free... I'm honestly shocked I made it this long this year has honestly been brutal and has had probably some of worst moments in the past couple of years but I feel like maybe there's still a future for me I'm not really sure or not but I guess I'll either reach it or die trying.
Still feel a complete disconnect from most people in my life and usually struggle with feeling like I don't deserve love but I know that's mostly just my mental illness lying to me even if it still feels painful alot of the time.
Going to clean out my depression room finally after letting it get really bad honestly, hopefully I manage to get it done sooner but who knows, I'll probably check in again either when I finish cleaning or when I reach my sh free anniversary whichever happens first.
Anyways stupid question but anyone got an idea of a small gift or something I could get myself to celebrate making it a year when I do? It feels kinda silly but I feel like I want it to be something someone here thinks of because I've really valued the support I've received here and I want it to kind of serve as a memento of that.
Anyways hope you all are also doing well and if not that things will get better eventually