>>81595656
i'm not masochistic to the point where i want a woman to brutally and or fatally harm me, but honestly slapping/choking is pretty kinky n' neat; i like the idea of being hurt enough to the point where i'm somewhat bedridden and a woman is nursing/taking care of me, i was in a hospital for a pretty gnarly surgery 3 years ago, i was stuck there for 4 days and i had a pretty cool connection with one of the nurses because she was super dorky just like me, she had a cowboy bebop tattoo of spike in the ending scene with the finger gun pose, her and i engaged in some pretty cool conversation to the point where i was distracting her from her work lol, she was making me kinda wish she'd just slither herself into my hospital bed and hold me or something lol, i was 17 at the time and she was easily in her mid-late 20s so obviously that would never happen but it was definitely the birth of my nursing fantasy, not even a fetish, it genuinely just makes me feel loved, dunno really how else to explain it, i get zero sexual arousal out of it..

>>81595522
im almost a neet too and it's rlly all i spend my money on lol, except i just do barebones bare minimum shitty ass marketing for some dude i went to highschool with and he just e-transfers me like $140 a week lol, i was born with a genuine physical condition where density in my leg bones deteriorate the older i get but since im male and white in a very progressive area they borderline indirectly told me to go fuck myself when i wanted neetbux EVEN with my condition, meanwhile women and POCs just breathe and they are eligible to apply for neetbux. white and male privilege for the win woohoo!