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these goals are some of the ones I should be aiming for desu
my nerves are a little screwed from some postural issues and also that I keep pricking them whenever I do injections
my sleep is... well it's 4:43 am for me you can guess
labs, I'm in one of the gay states that bans direct to consumer testing so I've just been winging DIY

feel like my executive dysfunction and "perfectionism" is causing retarded levels of inefficiency; I had one (1) non-meaningful project for a non-major class and now it's a day late after I worked on it starting at 8 and went on retarded rabbit holes about the subject instead of working on the presentation

i got caught in a bad "catch 22", going to sleep would mean staring an unfinished assignment in the face as I sleep, but I also have a meeting tomorrow for a project I'm doing for my major which is something meaningful to me but also something I'm behind on because I didn't just knock out the non-major class assignment out of the way when I should've but procrastinated it instead :/

it's so gay, it's literally easier than ever to do this requirement stuff with chatgpt, i wonder if it's serious sleep deprivation, nerve-damace induced selective retardation, resentment about having to take the requirement class, fear of submitting something that'll get graded poorly (and I then irrationally submit it late), ???

i hate these situations where I have one urgent thing to do that I HATE, and a more "hard" task that I actually would enjoy or at least get satisfaction from doing that it's good for me, and the urgent task stopgaps me from doing any of them

thank god I found this thread again as it's something to get these thoughts out of my head before I'm alone with my thoughts again while I sleep