>>81765791
I can relate to that feeling of hollowness a lot, hell, there were even a lot of things I used to do on my own before that now just feel hollow because of promises to share them. It really is a damn chungus life when you can't even get high or drunk to escape anymore without being reminded of the what ifs, or even escaping in to certain comfort games I could always turn to before, music etc. Obviously there is no blaming anyone for my stuck in place mind but myself, yet it is what it i.
I doubt my words mean much, but if anything, if you really managed to turn so much around for the sake of this girl... I honestly think you are a very good man regardless of your mistakes in the past. I respect you a lot. Even if things might not end up right with that girl, clearly you have so much to give, and I'm sure you can make someone feel very happy and loved one day.