What if I just like. Imagine a really interesting life in my head. Like the character is me but a chaddier version of me. With a mix of qualities I wish I had and qualities I already have and a few flaws here and there to keep things interesting. And I just imagine stories and events for this character. Doing shit I wanna do and living the life I wanna life. And then I go through life idly half believing it. I just sit there and imagine myself actually doing that stuff and feeling what I should in those moments. But continuing to exist in my current state that's nowhere close to that. What if I just did that.