I will not die

Idk im going nuts, its so over...

Relapse on tramadol, coke, lyrica and alprazolam, forgot how opiods make me people feel so good, im feeling like im in love or that feeling of warm when you have a gf i guess?, never have one, I think because endorphines rush or some love chemical
>https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=iZd-nhQZj5M&pp=0gcJCfwAo7VqN5tD
>https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=09839DpTctU
>https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=OWBApI2yMtA&pp=ygUNcmVzdGxlc3MgbmVqYQ%3D%3D