getting a gun is too expensive and i dont want to stab and i dont have anything near me i could realistically jump from and i fucked up hanging myself last time so i don’t want to try that again so my next option is overdose so what kind of stuff can i get over the counter to overdose on and kill myself (preferably swallowable pills so i can take a bunch in a row to knock them down easily)
im sick of the dysphoria i cant keep fucking repressing but trooning out is a terrible idea because of my imposter syndrome and the fact i dont pass and never will and the constant scrutiny i put myself under when i was still on hrt when i was boymoding
i cant fucking look at a cop without being incredibly shaken up to the point of tears because of shit with my dad
im a nothing person i don’t deserve to live and i don’t want to either way
please help me here its all i have anymore i cant keep living like this but the fucking dysphoria wont go away and that on its own is enough to get me to do this and the other garbage just compounds it
thank you in advance