I have obvious OCD, and I suspect I also have BPD. I've been an incel all these years, though, at the age of 25, having never gotten a girlfriend due to various reasons, including obesity and not going out very frequently. (Thank you, covid.) I feel like I get my emotional connection or whatever from my dad. Nobody comes close to him, and I would be devastated if something happened to him. I also live with him. He's been dealing with some random anger and anxiety from me for years, and I feel guilty for it, but I can't help myself. I always hug him and tell him I love him.

I also started this thread if you want to know what I'm like.
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My mental illness bullshit, especially my insomnia (I can't work on a schedule, so no A time to B time jobs.), essentially keeps me from getting a job unless I get lucky. I also have a bit of a fear of driving cars, and I haven't gotten my license yet, but this is common with OCD. I am very dependent on my dad, and I have some fear over this, since, although I'm 25, he's a boomer, and I'm from a poor family of a bunch of mentally ill freaks in denial, so once he's gone, I'm screwed.