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7/20/2025, 7:03:34 AM
>>81890959
America is so lost
If you are seen with a friend, Americans immediately start speculating if you're in a relationship with them regardless of sex
If you are seen alone, Americans immediately speculate that you must be into gay sex
Americans watch so much porn it's burned into their retinas and they can't think without it distorting the world around them
I fucking hate it here lowkey.
America is so lost
If you are seen with a friend, Americans immediately start speculating if you're in a relationship with them regardless of sex
If you are seen alone, Americans immediately speculate that you must be into gay sex
Americans watch so much porn it's burned into their retinas and they can't think without it distorting the world around them
I fucking hate it here lowkey.
7/14/2025, 8:30:41 AM
>>81820134
Dad beat me up at least once a week from age 3 all the way to at most age 14 when it didn't hurt anymore and I outgrew the ability to cry. Living in a constant sleep-deprived fight-or-flight stress response can't be good for development lol. Sometimes he'd just barge into my room as I was sleeping and start pummeling me. Mom also would always say "you can tell me anything" while putting on a nurturing act and pretended to be a confidant to me but would just tell Dad so he'd fly into a rage. I assume it was for her amusement. They're the type of parents that took their stress out on their kids.
They sent me to a middleschool where I kept the same classmates from K-8, and it felt like I grew up with those cretins and it was very sibling-like, most of whom I hated, and I honestly thought nothing much when I moved on to highschool. Highschool was pretty alienating, and since it was an all-boys highschool, I never got to meet any girls. It's America and I was pretty isolated in my neighborhood of old people, and there were no clubs or ways to interact with girls my age. I was never allowed to work a job and so I could not afford or even test for a car/license at 16. I didn't get to even have my first crush until I was 17 and we met because of a thing our two schools were doing as a joint-club activity. She rejected me.
I made a few friends during that club thing, and honestly, I was satisfied with having around 5-10 solid friends even if it took until my senior year to get to know them. They were taken away from me by the fact that everyone was going on to college, where the pattern repeated. I didn't make friends until my 4th year, and needless to say, the two crushes on female acquaintances I had both rejected me pretty flatly. It's with some remorse that I have to leave these friends behind too, since, what's next? Just me, and God-knows-what working the same shift at the local H&R Block?
TL;DR I never really even had a youth to waste to begin with.
Dad beat me up at least once a week from age 3 all the way to at most age 14 when it didn't hurt anymore and I outgrew the ability to cry. Living in a constant sleep-deprived fight-or-flight stress response can't be good for development lol. Sometimes he'd just barge into my room as I was sleeping and start pummeling me. Mom also would always say "you can tell me anything" while putting on a nurturing act and pretended to be a confidant to me but would just tell Dad so he'd fly into a rage. I assume it was for her amusement. They're the type of parents that took their stress out on their kids.
They sent me to a middleschool where I kept the same classmates from K-8, and it felt like I grew up with those cretins and it was very sibling-like, most of whom I hated, and I honestly thought nothing much when I moved on to highschool. Highschool was pretty alienating, and since it was an all-boys highschool, I never got to meet any girls. It's America and I was pretty isolated in my neighborhood of old people, and there were no clubs or ways to interact with girls my age. I was never allowed to work a job and so I could not afford or even test for a car/license at 16. I didn't get to even have my first crush until I was 17 and we met because of a thing our two schools were doing as a joint-club activity. She rejected me.
I made a few friends during that club thing, and honestly, I was satisfied with having around 5-10 solid friends even if it took until my senior year to get to know them. They were taken away from me by the fact that everyone was going on to college, where the pattern repeated. I didn't make friends until my 4th year, and needless to say, the two crushes on female acquaintances I had both rejected me pretty flatly. It's with some remorse that I have to leave these friends behind too, since, what's next? Just me, and God-knows-what working the same shift at the local H&R Block?
TL;DR I never really even had a youth to waste to begin with.
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