I'm currently relapsing on alcohol. Took my first glass of wine. I've tried like 35+ drugs surely. Honestly think this feeling is top 3. This drug is incredible at the right time and dose. I just feel my worries melt away, all the stress of today is gone (VERY stressful day spent drug dealing), I can't finally focus, relax on the music I'm listening to, I can feel my muscles relieve their tension, this pizza I'm eating tastes so good.

And I know from experience like 1 hour from now it will all go to shit but oh well. Last relapse was a few months back. Brought 1500 worth of exctacy pills I then had to sell over the next month, it was horrible. Wrecked my motorbike in the rain, broke my finger and severely bruised myself, I'm legit still healing. But alcohol will cure my pain. Because it loves me and I love it. Fuck I was smoking heroin the other day I don't even think that was close to being as good as this. Just the pure anxiety relief is like nothing I've felt. Benzos zopiclone gaba gbl 14bdo bullshit. They do fuck all to GENUINELY relax me. Onky my beloved toxic solvent can do that.