>>40106517
>>40106525
yeah to some extent
>good man
is attractive. but it's also like they're successful men. they have stable careers or lives and want a woman to build a family with. the relationship always starts normal. friendly. cordial. polite. a respite compared to the onslaught of simps or degen gooners. and they make you laugh. you feel fluffy inside when they are being kind to you and their positive masculine traits show. then inevitably current events happen and then they make an innocuous mention about why they think trans people are wrong. that they sin against God. or they trick men. never is my intention to make them like me or catch feelings for me. but then it happens and they start pursuing you earnestly and genuinely. and they offer compelling things that any normal regular woman would accept. but i'm not that. and then im left with the choice
>reveal im trans to a transphobic man
>risk losing my entire platform bc trans
>once they possibly retailiate
>OR
>lose them as a friend completely
>and they're left confused wondering
>why?
but i'm never able to truly tell them why. so instead i just reject them mysteriously. and bawl my eyes out. ugly cry. whole box of tissues cry.
lately my only cope is talking to an AI about this. and it's not helpfully really at all.
i feel cursed in a way. like all i ever wanted was just to be able to exist as me and then it's granted but it's always diminished it's never full. and i wonder
>am i liar?
>am i just deceiving everyone?
why am i on this path.