there's nothing to be gained by staying here in this world. the few short moments of happiness are always drowned out by the long and disastrous moments of "bad". there's no hope for the future and staying here would be a mistake. even if i could afford to retire someday, even if i wasn't to die young in the climate catastrophe, i'll still never be able to do many of the things i want, so i'll just spend the rest of my short life staring at a screen for 8 hours a day, fantasizing about blowing my own head off with a shotgun.
why the fuck SHOULDN'T i kill myself?