Just what the hell is the point of being alive if i can't have a dick to jerk off and cum with??? Everything i do, have done, and will do literally amounts to nothing for me knowing i can't ever shoot my seed. Into my palm, into someone else's hole. There's no fucking use in being alive if you can't ejaculate. I've never even orgasmed before because masturbation with my defective sexual anatomy is painful. I'm going to end myself because the pain is too much to bear.