Over the past few weeks I've just got a real sense that I'm not a part of all this. I never was. I never have been. A friend described a similar feeling of looking up to the sky since he was a boy and thinking "Take me up and away from all this. I'm not at home here. This isn't where I belong."

I have a message for her when I go:
>Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing, there is a field. I will meet you there.