How do I reconcile the fact that I spent 10 years believing I had to be a woman to be happy, only to end up at 26 with nothing good or meaningful in my life? I feel like everyone knew and nobody told me. Im glad I found myself finally but now I have to wait to get a double incision mastectomy to go back to living a normal life. And how am I even supposed to live a normal life when this system is so fucked up?