>>937070488
Embrace your loneliness, and try to channel all of your darkest thoughts and write them down. If you want to be happy on the long run, you need to learn more about yourself and learn to not care. For when you actually learn all of the good things you've done, the shitty things and the not-so-cool things as well, you can finally reach a point of understanding who you truly are and be happy.

Also start pursuing something you may find interesting like, being the best at something you love or try to find new things, get out of your comfort zone. Also, get a hobbie, like, listen to some tunes, collect comic magazines, maybe watch anime idk

I tried all of these things and it didn't work (I hate myself even more now), but at least for some people it did work.