Are there any good games where you lead a cult?

Anyone know how it is to make love as a teenager? How one even gets a gf in HS? As a khhv in his late 20s I missed out on teenage love. I had an interaction once with this girl in hs, we were eyeing each other all the time and then one day she came up to me with a friend and her negro friend asked me instead if I like her, and I was like I'm more into your friend (the one who was eyeing me up all the time) and then girl I wanted said no I'm not into you. I was shocked and angered at the same time and later in the year she got a boyfriend who was skinny fat and shorter than me but was the same age as her (I was a year older). I never interacted or made eye contact again with her and she would even hide behind her boyfriend when I ever went past her. HS was horrible for me and college went by like it didn't even happen, never had any interactions with women in college.