>>33394452
Call suicide prevention
You are literally the exact case that they are made to deal with.
>You have no survivor guilt or dead friends that they can not bring back
>No homelessness or job issues that they can not fix
You just have a seretonin/dopemine addiction and need to be rewired to not need it as much.

There is a number right at the top of the page. You can also look for a local number or just dial 911.